I just wanted to share a snapshot of the healing plains I experienced for a couple days a few weeks ago. I know what some of you will be thinking....just don't. What is barren for one is beauty for another, for ME. If only I could have seen this countryside before human beings were here. It must have been a taste of heaven. The silence, the sky....
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I'd forgotten...
So...
I
d
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c
e
d
the
t
a
n
g
o
the
o
t
h
e
r
day.
it was only for 2 seconds and without music and I don't even know the tango.
But I remembered something:
I LOVE DANCING!
hm.
I guess that's all I have to say, just now. I mean, there's so much more to say, like, about my visit to see my little sister and all the things I got to do there....like about getting re-acquainted with some of the most important people in my life and about the ideas I have for my future...but for now, all I have to say is this.
I'd forgotten how much I love to dance.
May I dance again soon!
I
d
a
n
c
e
d
the
t
a
n
g
o
the
o
t
h
e
r
day.
it was only for 2 seconds and without music and I don't even know the tango.
But I remembered something:
I LOVE DANCING!
hm.
I guess that's all I have to say, just now. I mean, there's so much more to say, like, about my visit to see my little sister and all the things I got to do there....like about getting re-acquainted with some of the most important people in my life and about the ideas I have for my future...but for now, all I have to say is this.
I'd forgotten how much I love to dance.
May I dance again soon!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
letting go and cement
Probably you all wonder where I've been...lost in real life, not blogging at all. Well, all four of you :) I've been here...but I've been a little wounded at heart and not quite up to blogging. Besides being busy.
I don't know what wounded me, but I know what is healing my heart. God has been treating me with the tenderness of a physician who is also my father. Maybe that's what I like about Jesus so much. He is to me every sort of man I can need. He is my Father and my Brother and my King and even my Husband...all in a spiritual sense of course, but really, aren't we spiritual beings first? Where does all this grasping for physical things, for earthly things come from? Why do I want to cling to something that isn't Jesus?
Pretty much I've stopped grasping for anything. At least, that's what I'd like to think, what I want for my life. In some ways I think I'm learning to let go, in others, I still cling to those things I think will save me, forgetting that Jesus is the One Who was faithful to me when I doubted His essence. But I don't want to live clinging to the things that keep me in bondage: the money, this friendship, this potential friendship, a car, even America and "safety." I want to let go. And just trust that when I fall either Jesus will catch me and hold me in His arms or else I will discover in the end that hitting the cement was really the good thing, as crazy as that sounds. And anyway, isn't that meekness? Not grasping for anything, but accepting God's providence and will, whether it hurts or is not painful, whether it is slow plodding or you see progress, whether you abound or suffer need?
The problem is, when you do fall on the cement, it hurts like the dickens.
Maybe trusting enough to believe in goodness through the pain is what faith really means.
I don't know.
Please don't say I've done amazing things.
Please don't say I'm humble.
Please don't ask me not to cry.
Because I will cry. But I will also accept every single balm and sweet tender mercy He sends my way. I will receive joyfully the sunsets and the wind; these prairie heavens.
May I be permitted to love the Prairies till the day I die.
I don't know what wounded me, but I know what is healing my heart. God has been treating me with the tenderness of a physician who is also my father. Maybe that's what I like about Jesus so much. He is to me every sort of man I can need. He is my Father and my Brother and my King and even my Husband...all in a spiritual sense of course, but really, aren't we spiritual beings first? Where does all this grasping for physical things, for earthly things come from? Why do I want to cling to something that isn't Jesus?
Pretty much I've stopped grasping for anything. At least, that's what I'd like to think, what I want for my life. In some ways I think I'm learning to let go, in others, I still cling to those things I think will save me, forgetting that Jesus is the One Who was faithful to me when I doubted His essence. But I don't want to live clinging to the things that keep me in bondage: the money, this friendship, this potential friendship, a car, even America and "safety." I want to let go. And just trust that when I fall either Jesus will catch me and hold me in His arms or else I will discover in the end that hitting the cement was really the good thing, as crazy as that sounds. And anyway, isn't that meekness? Not grasping for anything, but accepting God's providence and will, whether it hurts or is not painful, whether it is slow plodding or you see progress, whether you abound or suffer need?
The problem is, when you do fall on the cement, it hurts like the dickens.
Maybe trusting enough to believe in goodness through the pain is what faith really means.
I don't know.
Please don't say I've done amazing things.
Please don't say I'm humble.
Please don't ask me not to cry.
Because I will cry. But I will also accept every single balm and sweet tender mercy He sends my way. I will receive joyfully the sunsets and the wind; these prairie heavens.
May I be permitted to love the Prairies till the day I die.
Monday, January 5, 2009
God's Word...Every Day. Period.
Jesus,
I have ignored your Word.
I know it is my life, because You are my life.
I want to be faithful to remember You, to soak You up in Your Word.
Please forgive me for ignoring it.
I am coming.
Millie
Friends, I have a challenge for all of us. First, listen to Revive our Hearts for Monday, Jan 5th. here. I accept the challenge to spend time with God every day for a month. Will you join me?
I have ignored your Word.
I know it is my life, because You are my life.
I want to be faithful to remember You, to soak You up in Your Word.
Please forgive me for ignoring it.
I am coming.
Millie
Friends, I have a challenge for all of us. First, listen to Revive our Hearts for Monday, Jan 5th. here. I accept the challenge to spend time with God every day for a month. Will you join me?
Friday, January 2, 2009
I love the little ones
Rukea I miss your smiling, silly face! May many Jesus people share truth with you and love you.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
Assessment
Assessment.
Heart: beating
now faintly
pulse surges,
fades;
Grace defies
death-fear:
half-closed eyes.
Breath: there
now shallow,
another deep
gasp.
Life-truth: inhale
mouth, dry;
heat, pale.
Quickly, bind!
pressure stays:
weak blood
life-blood.
Lay my body
in a bath;
the water from
Your side.
Wash my wounds;
bind them.
Your life-blood
for mine.
Fill my lungs
with air,
with You.
Only You I breathe.
My heart cannot
beat alone.
It's You I need.
Heart: beating
now faintly
pulse surges,
fades;
Grace defies
death-fear:
half-closed eyes.
Breath: there
now shallow,
another deep
gasp.
Life-truth: inhale
mouth, dry;
heat, pale.
Quickly, bind!
pressure stays:
weak blood
life-blood.
Lay my body
in a bath;
the water from
Your side.
Wash my wounds;
bind them.
Your life-blood
for mine.
Fill my lungs
with air,
with You.
Only You I breathe.
My heart cannot
beat alone.
It's You I need.
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